Life is Hard Sometimes

These past few days have been really rough.

It's impossible to be a perfect person, and sometimes I have a hard time with that. It's difficult to accept that I'm not going to be a perfect sibling, co-worker, employee, daughter, and friend. It pains me to think of all of my inadequacies and it worries me that I'm not making any progress in this life.

One of my favorite scripture passages is found in 2 Nephi chapter 4. I title this chapter "Nephi's Lament" and subtitle it "My Lament". I love this chapter because it's where Nephi mourns of how quickly he falls into temptation and asks the Lord for His help and guidance. I find this chapter comforting in a way because I have a lot of the same feelings that Nephi did- and Nephi was a great prophet! It's great to know that I'm not alone in my struggles in life and that it's okay to feel weak sometimes. But, it's what we do with the weaknesses that matters.

There are times in everyone's lives where you feel incredibly vulnerable and inadequate. Right now is that time for me. I worry that I'm not doing enough good in the world, and that I should be a lot better at this point in my life. I worry that I'm missing out on so many growing opportunities because I'm too stubborn to learn the lessons the Lord wants me to learn.

BUT, I'm going to be better. I know that I can be better. I don't expect perfection, but I know that I can do better than I currently am. I can be a better family member, employee, and friend. I have a lot of things to work on, I'll be the first to admit it, and I have a long way to travel, but at least I'm on the right road. At least I'm holding onto the rod and pointed in the right direction. This is the point of repentance right? Changing your heart and mind to be like The Fathers?

So, if you have a rock in your stomach because there are things that you've done that you knew better? Change it! Our Father in Heaven loves you and wants you to repent so you can be with Him again! That misery is painful and the only way that you can make it go away is by repenting.

I didn't mean for this blog post to come out as a sermon, I think that maybe I needed to hear it more than anyone else out there. So, thanks for reading. I hope that maybe it will help another lost soul.